Pulled a calf muscle this morning. Don’t even frickin’ know how…. but it happened and now I’m dying. It’s night. Yeah. Those of you who would advise that I shouldn’t have walked…. I’M IN COLLEGE AS AN INTERNATIONAL STUDENT. I DON’T HAVE A CHOICE.
Sorry for the caps… I’m kinda ticked off at my fitness and forgetting to stretch.
“Man, these times are hard”
-The Script
Couldn’t have said it better myself. Thank God for government holidays and shortened classes.
Man, I love this place. Have I already said that? The tennis/badminton and basketball courts are behind me. What’s funny is that even most of their basketball players are short. BAHAHHAHAHAHAHA x’D
I should watch my head. These players are terrible at aiming.
“Why can’t they let me be? Why don’t I know what I am?
I force this hate into my heart ’cause it’s my only friend
My lips are sewn shut, I watch myself bleed
They push and pull me and it’s killing me within
Throw it all away, throw it all away!
I keep on screaming, but there’s really nothing left to say
So get away, just get away!
I keep on fighting, but I can’t keep going on this way”
–Sell Your Soul, Hollywood Undead
Well, it’s not that bad, but MUFY taking a serious toll on my physical and mental health. I totally over slept today and missed a class, which was added to my stress and fear of failure. I had perfect attendance before this. Oh damn, that is really my biggest fear ever. Letting myself down. And I did that today. HOW DID I NOT SET ALL THREE ALARMS???? Seriously, I juuust started living on my own. GIMME A BREAK HERE! Though, the teacher was amazing. She totally understood.
I haaaaaaaaate weekends. Though, I do need them. My brain does need rest. But today I kinda decided that I won’t go home without finishing my work here. I’m dead tired by the time I walk home so I can’t get any work done anyway. Might as well finish my work here and just go home to sleep. I love this place so much- it has everything to allow me to focus on just work. Gotta completely revamp my life.
Something I learned… just because I can take a rest doesn’t mean I should. Just cuz I have free time doesn’t mean I should slack off. Survival in MUFY (or Monash) means working 24/7. If your brain falls behind for a second, you’re dead. Uhuh… this is one of the reasons I hate weekends. Weekends are a LIE. Gotta sell my soul to education if I wanna do well here. Yep. Not that I mind, but change is a serious pain in the derriere.
(x___x)
Tears fall thick and fast
But the voices don’t stop
The mind screams loud and deep
But what is empty is never filled.
What does one do?
But write down words
And wish they won’t be seen?
But they show them still.
I hate weekends. And I have never drawn a more accurate picture.
“…I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars
That I will never show
I’m a survivor
In more ways than you know
‘Cause all the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I’m not broken, I’m bruised
…
There’s a part of me I can’t get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once, I’ll never be the same
Now I’m taking back my life today…”
-Warrior, Demi Lovato
“Now I know what’s good for me
All that I need
And I can’t wait to sink my teeth in
And take another bite
And the best part about it
Is I’m only one who can do somethin’ about it
I fill the well with some water, it’s overflowing
Black into gold
Who knew it’d be so bright without the blindfolds
And I’ll just keep changin’
These colors, colors, colors, colors
I’m not in the same place
That I was, I was, I was, I was
But if somebody tells me
I’ll go back to my old ways
I’m gonna say no way
I’m out of the doorway
I’m hearing them all say
I’ll go back to my old ways
Not going back to my old ways”
-Old ways, Demi Lovato
Not going back to my old ways. I’m more blessed than most people that I’m here. I’m gonna be the best I’ve ever been. People keep saying that I’ll be as lazy as I was, but nope. Not gonna happen. Who knew Demi was this awesome? Not me.
“I used to hold my freak back
Now I’m letting go
I make my own choice
Bitch, I run this show
So leave the lights on
No, you can’t make me behave
So you say I’m complicated
That I must be outta my mind
But you’ve had me underrated
Rated, rated
What’s wrong with being, what’s wrong with being
What’s wrong with being confident?”
-Confident, Demi Lovato
THIS IS MY JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!!!!! I do believe I have found my new anthem.
You probably know this by now, but I’m officially a 3 day old Insta-artist. That is, an artist on Instagram.
I’ve always loved working with Sharpies, and I’ve (relatively) recently realised my love of typography. And two days ago, after getting my 100th follower on my blog and playing around with the idea of monetizing this site, I started asking myself:
“How do I capitalise on this (somewhat) skill I have?”
And thus was born the idea of becoming an Insta-artist. Man, I LOVE INSTAGRAM NOW.
Please, everyone, follow my instagram! You may like the motivational quotes on there, or make your own requests here to see it there!
instagram.com/ladyquotesalot
Who knew I’d be happy with a fail? BUT PEEPS. I ACTUALLY PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS IN ALs. SAY WHAAAT. Those who don’t know, I’d already applied to college by the time ALs came around and had been accepted, so I didn’t study for the exam and was actually thrilled to give an exam where there are zero consequences.
Okay, technically I didn’t fail. I got E in Law, E in GovPol Unit 1, and D in GovPol Unit 2, which equals to C overall in GovPol.
So technically I passed both. Practically, however, I failed one and passed the other. But I didn’t get any Fs! Ain’t that awesome? Not really, cuz this result didn’t mean crap to me in the first place. And doesn’t matter now either.
Shit happens, and then there’s me. Always have a loophole, that’s what I say. xP
It. Starts. Now. 